I can’t believe it’s officially January 1, 2018! To be honest, I am really glad the holidays are over. While I love Christmas and enjoy doing the Christmas “things”, this winter has been incredibly cold and I have barely wanted to leave our apartment. Which is also a big deal when you have a super active toddler who needs to let that energy out but every time she steps out, she comes back with her cheeks so red, it kills me. Normally I’m ok with the cold but I’m ready for some spring which I know isn’t due for a good while.
Anyways! I’m rambling. I am really excited for a brand new year and to do it all over again. I’m into it, you guys! I’m the cheesy person saying “new year, new me!”. I don’t really have specifics but I know I want to be healthier and make better choices and I think that’s why I appreciate the symbolism of a new year. I really like the thought of just evaluating things right now and determining that something needs to change. I could probably do with drinking more water, maybe going out for more runs. This is it! This is the time to just start fresh.
We started the year off great by heading over to Tatiana’s apartment. Todd and Tatiana had invited us for dinner and it was AMAZING. They used their new sous vide to cook us perfect filet mignon. We hung out and drank wine and chased Petra around. I was semi-determined to keep her awake until midnight but she was soooo due for sleep around 10am. She slept in the next room while we waited for the ball to drop. Honestly, it was perfect, just me and the people that I love. Todd and Tatiana have become like family to us here in New York and I couldn’t be more grateful to have the opportunity to spend the holidays with them.
Petra woke up shortly after the ball dropped and we went home where she pretty seamlessly continued to sleep and woke up on time at around 7am lol she’s such an early bird! That’s ok, though because I’m ok being an early bird too. If it hadn’t been 15 degrees outside maybe a walk would have been nice. Did I mention how I can’t wait for winter to be over already? I hope this year is full of love and happiness for everyone! Cheers!
I know that it’s been fall for a good amount of time but I feel like we’ve just started to feel those effects on my part of town. The leaves are finally starting to change colors and most days you can feel a chilly breeze that makes you break out the warm jackets and cozy sweaters. But my ultimate bucket wish list? Apple picking. From day one, I’ve told Łukasz that I’ve been on the east coast for such a long time and I’ve yet to experience a real east coast fall: you know, going to see the leaves change, pumpkin patching, apple picking, all the good stuff. Maybe finish the night with a big old mug of apple cider or mulled wine. Now that Petra’s 17 months, there’s nothing she loves more than having the space to explore without worrying about where she could be going. This was obviously a no-brainer of a weekend.
When at the apple orchards, eat lots of apple cider donuts! Petra gobbled these up. We went to Barton Orchards in Poughkeepsie, NY which is about two hours away from NYC. It was an amazing scenic drive. Honestly those changing leaves is what made me fall in love with the east coast and what makes me hesitate when we even think about leaving.
Petra fell in love with this wagon. She immediately wanted to help and pull our cargo but of course she instantly regretted it. It’s not light! I think she ended up enjoying the ride more so she could sit and eat apples and donuts. Łukasz and I would hand her apples and she would put them in our half bushel bag. So helpful!
And of course, sneak bites. It was a day full of apple snacking which I’m definitely not mad about. Healthy snacking is a plus.
On our way back we stopped by the petting zoo and Petra pet all the donkeys. They’re so sweet! Like big puppies, they just wanted to be scratched behind the ears.
I definitely recommend these Orchards. We happened to visit on a Monday so the grounds were rather empty and the cool attractions and restaurants were closed but I’m ok with it if we are able to avoid these crowds! The Orchards full up on the weekends, people get there at 9am. Aside from Orchards they grow their own veggies and fruits and they even have a tap room on site for some refreshing adult beverages. I literally can’t wait to come back here with Petra and Łukasz next year!
Around the time Petra was thee months old, we wanted to take her camping. Three months! The trip didn't end up happening because it rain and rain plus breastfeeding seemed like I would be confined to a tent the whole time. Well, I'm glad we waited a year because a few weeks ago, we finally took Petra on her first camping trip to Lake George in Upstate New York. Camping had always been one of our favorite pastimes before our little lady was born so we were really excited to see how Petra would like it. Knowing her exploratory nature at 14 months, it was like she had been living in the woods the entire time. She even went to bed in the tent easier and faster than she normally would at home. Isn't it amazing? Sometimes it seems like we're all innately animals who just need to escape to our natural habitat of living in the woods from time to time.
We spent two nights, which is literally NOTHING, to Lukasz' disappointment but we had a great time playing on the lake. Petra was all about the beach and the water at our campsite. We bought her this swimsuit filled with floaties. I'm pretty sure she hated it but it was better to be safe than sorry! It has decent reviews on Amazon. Food happened to be my main concern especially when we have such a picky eater with a few little teeth but it ended up being pretty simple. We had purchased a camping stove a year ago for the trip that never happened and I was pleasantly surprised at how easy it was to quickly sautée some chicken or salmon, both of which Petra loves. I cooked up some veggies as well but she wasn't as keen on those as I was. When traveling with a little one, I would highly recommend a camping stove. It's not exactly "roughing it" but it really took the guesswork out of meal times. For snacks, we packed plenty of fresh fruit and clif bars.
For bedtime, we brought along a few thermal sleeping pads to put outside of the sleeping bags but we also wrapped Petra up in a vintage LL Bean onesie that really kept her incredibly warm throughout the night. Especially with Petra, who loves to toss and turn in her sleep, I was very concerned that eventually she would wiggle out of our sleeping bag but she actually slept quite soundly. It was actually me who probably woke up every hour to make sure she was completely covered and warm but isn't that every mom's story? I really underestimate how chilly the ground can get even if you're going camping when it's 90 degrees throughout the day. The temperature changes so quickly, it always catches my by surprise.
On a side note, Pierrot, our fur ball was all about being outdoors. This guy would probably spend his life camping in the woods if we allowed it but he also needs someone there to feed him and give him clean water or else he will starve. He's quite the mix of outdoorsy high maintenance. He's generally a good calm dog at home in Brooklyn (some would say a CatDog… me, I call him that) but he's actually the best when he's able to run free off leash. He never wanders far and all he really expects is that maybe we toss him a ball every now and again.
And so, I leave you with this cute picture of Petra drinking out of her camping mug and look at her tiny Keens! Overall, it was great miniature vacation with the family. Babies love camping! And we definitely plan to do a lot more camping as Petra grows older. I love that we can really introduce her to a love for the outdoors. It only makes me excited to see her grow up wanting to hopefully do things like be outside kayaking than playing with a smartphone. What a sweet little babe ❤
Happy Mother’s Day to my mom and all the mother’s out there. I’m lucky enough to have my mother in town this year. Petra’s birthday and Mother’s Day are just days apart so that’s just how the cookie crumbled! We’ll probably be going out to brunch but the weather isn’t being very nice this year which is a bummer. Anyways, I wanted to thank my mom and all the mother’s out there for all that you do. It wasn’t until I became a mother myself that I realized it’s a job that comes with many sacrifices but is also incredibly fulfilling to create a little human being and send them out into the world. I can only hope that I can continue to be a strong woman and be a role model to my little lady and I hope to continue to surround myself with strong women so I am never without inspiration.
1. Vans Toddler Mono Canvas Old Skool V: I’m just a tiny bit obsessed with the color “Millenial Pink” which is the most ridiculous name so maybe I’ll just call it baby pink? Speaking of baby, I just ordered these for Petra. I’m obsessed. I’m literally about to order a pair for myself. Have to take advantage of her being too little to complain about matching Mommy and Me outfits! (Which is what my wishlist is mostly made of.)
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3. The best beauty tips from Mom: If you’re going to get makeup advice from anyone, get it from the moms. They’re the ones that are going to know the short cuts and tips and tricks on how to look presentable with little time on your hands or with a little one tugging at the arms. Personally, my favorite time of the day is putting on makeup in front of my mirror while Petra sits next to me, happily playing with my little makeup tubes.
4. Wow in the World: Podcasts are pretty big right now and everyone has their own preference. I personally love interviews and short stories while my friend, Tatiana, loves murder mysteries. Now NPR is releasing a podcast made just for kids that covers topics like science and technology. Petra is too young for it at the moment (it’s geared for kids ages 5-12) but I’m pretty excited to have a listen because why not? It’s like Bill Nye the Science Guy for your ears.
You are one year old today. One whole year. You have truly been the one to teach me that so much can happen in a year. I’ve watched you go from a tiny little bundle of joy to a crazy little one year old. You have so much life in you, it’s sometimes scary but I know I’m lucky. I know I got something pretty amazing when I had you. It has been a year of growing for both of us. You learned to eat, sometimes with your hands, play with toys, wave hi and bye, nod your head yes and no, take a big girl bath, play with toys, grow teeth, chew with those teeth, roll over, sit up on your own, stand and balance on your own, play nicely with the dog, up until last week when you took your first EXCITING steps. And I learned how to have patience. I’ll be honest when I say that it wasn’t easy. This has truly been the hardest year of my life but you have also made it the happiest. You were worth every second of crying and trying to figure you out. You were worth every sacrifice I could have made. You were worth the sleepless nights and long days. You taught me how to be an adult and you forced me to grow up. And even now, as you become more interactive every day and learn so much more, you’re reminding that life is still fun and it’s not worth being serious all the time.
We’re both still figuring it out. Like how I’m trying to figure out how to teach you to not bite me without raising my voice and you’re still getting a hang of the walking thing but that’s what has me so excited right now. That this is only year one and we have so much ahead of us and there’s so much we need to do together! But I’m going to need time to slow down because I haven’t stopped crying thinking about how fast time is going now and I need you to be my little girl forever. And I’m going to need you to need me and even when you don’t, maybe you can pretend to or something. Because this is who you’re always going to be to me, and even someday when you’re 28, I’ll look at you and still remember the moment you were born and I held you in my arms and I thought about the person you would someday grow up to be. And I looked at your confused little newborn face and I felt like my heart was going to explode with all the love I had for such a new little human being.
Lately I’ve been thinking about the beginning, about when I met your dad and we made plans for our life together and we talked about having a baby. It’s funny to think back in those moments now because I feel like you were always there waiting for us and waiting to be a part of our life. There was nothing before. First your father and I had each other and then we had you and then we had everything. Happy birthday, my beautiful little girl. I love you, I love you, I love you.
Petras birthday is a little over a month away and I’m really trying to finalize some plans that I want to get together for her first birthday! It’s sort of tricky because on the one hand, Petra won’t remember this so it seems like it’ll be mostly a party for the adults. On the other hand, you only turn ONE year old once so we’re pretty excited (and, like, a little sad) at how fast our baby girl is growing up.
I’m really teetering between just having pizza and drinks at the park next to some swings or maybe like doing a really nice dinner someplace fun and kid friendly. I’ve even considered brunch because it’s my favorite meal and when it comes to kid foods, there’s nothing more kid friendly than breakfast foods. Plus it’s in the afternoon so we’ll be done by the evening. But I don’t know! It’s all up in the air right now.
One thing I do have my heart set on, though, is getting her a cake from Milk Bar. Their birthday cake is amazing. Lukasz got me one for my birthday a few years back and I’ve been dreaming of having an excuse to get another one for a while. Because I guess I can’t eat a whole one by myself… oh well! Any other birthday ideas?
I feel like I’ve been wanting to write a post about this for a while but it has taken me time to really form my thoughts on this subject. I recently watched an episode of Girls where Hannah has to deal with the decision about having a baby or not and she happens to meet a version of herself on a stoop. This version of Hannah is an actress and has two babies and she gives Hannah some unexpected advice “Kids are super easy. It’s being an adult that’s hard”. While I hate to be that person that comes to some sort of realization while watching a dumb show, this dumb quote really resonated with me. Being an adult is hard.
I’m not going to get super specific about how I came to be pregnant and whether it was planned or not but, I will say that Lukasz and I were two semi-adults when everything happened. And even the most prepared person will be caught off guard when that pregnancy test comes up positive. Up until that point, my free time was spent lounging around, wasting money on crap and alcohol and probably watching TV during my free time. Free time… remember that? It’s really funny how having to raise a baby really, sort of, throws you into just being an adult and making adult decisions… or “Adulting” as the kids are calling it these days. Now I have to think about how I spend money a little bit more and having a baby girl really affects every decision I make, right down to my eating habits. How can I expect my daughter to eat healthy when I’m eating burgers all the time? Lukasz and I have been thinking lately about how to advance in our careers and making a five year plan about what property to buy in the future, something with an extra bedroom in case we have another baby and a yard for our dog.
While it all seems pretty understandable, it’s just all so new to me. Also! Kids are not easy. But I’m going to really blame Petra on this one. I’ve met other 10 month old babies and Petra has a crazy amount of energy that it’s hard to keep up with her sometimes. But ok, all of that aside, I remember when Lukasz and I were thinking about getting a dog and we really wanted to wait for the right time because a dog was a “big responsibility” and we had to walk it twice a day and feed it. In hindsight, I laugh at us back then and how silly we were. Now if someone tells me “I can’t get a dog, I just don’t have the time for it.” I roll my eyes and shake my head and juts walk away before this rage boils up inside of me and manifests itself in word vomit. A dog is a piece of cake and babies are hard. BUT they’re worth it. My daughter is the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me in my life and even if I’m exhausted every single day, I go to sleep grateful and happy to be her mother. And I’d do it all again a million times over.
Our first weekend in California happened to coincide with Petra’s 9 months so a celebration was definitely in order. When I was younger, my house was the party house and when I say party, I mean BBQ and that usually meant some kind of tacos. So naturally, I expected no less than that and my parents delivered. Saturday was a huge celebration for our baby girl where some of my side of the family would meet her for the first time. My parents even got a taco guy because when in Southern California, if you’re not eating tacos then you’re doing it wrong. Petra and I wore matching shoes. I picked out a sweater for Lukasz. My family is basically adorable.
But let’s talk about the little lady of the hour… Petra is actually 10 months old now so I’m really late on this but I feel like I still needed to post this and talk about it so I never forget how tiny Petra once was and every little milestone that happened and how much I love her right now, right this minute. Petra is officially nine months old. A week before turning nine months, she got her first bottom tooth. It was a couple of bad teething days where all she wanted was just to be held by me at all times and maybe chew on something cold a few times. She would get her second bottom tooth a couple of weeks later. Little P has the best appetite. She eats three actual meals a day with a few purses mixed in as a snack. She is literally game to try anything, I love it so much. She used to hate sweet foods but now her favorite foods are probably blueberries and oranges (carefully peeled, of course). She smiles and laughs while she eats, its too cute to handle. She smiles and shows me her teeth right before she stuffs food into her mouth. She LOVES her papa. SO. MUCH. Those two melt my heart, the way they play, the way he speaks Polish to her all day, everyday. Lukasz once texted me and told me that Petra answered him back in Polish by saying “tak”. He was so excited! Petra is also becoming good friends with Pierrot. She loves chasing him even though he’s always faster because shes crawling. Sometimes when Pierrot gets into his silly moods and begins chasing his tail, she stares at him and starts cracking up. It’s the sweetest thing. In addition to crawling, she stands herself to standing position and cruises the furniture which means she cant be left alone, not even for a minute. She’s always on the go! Petra loves being outside more than anything, but that’s the beauty of New York. The whole city is a playground for us and I love being outside with her. It’s been a bit of a rough winter but I see Spring and summer on the horizon and time spent on the swings for Little P.
As you can see, there was much to celebrate in California… ❤
The picture below is one of my favorites of Petra and her grandpa! This was also Petra’s first time playing with balloons and she loved every second of it! I’m already in the process of brainstorming for her first birthday and balloons are definitely on the list. They make her so happy!
On our first week, we also visited Venice Beach close to Los Angeles County. For some reason, I always get super nostalgic for Venice Beach when I’m in New York. I watch Californication and begin to idealize what California and LA are to me even though, it’s really nothing like that. It also reminds me of the Doors because, Jim Morrison and all of that fun stuff. It really just takes me back to my teenage years when I fell in love with Classic Rock and thought I would be a hippie forever, haha.
Things definitely didn’t turn out the way I thought they would, they turned out better! We happened to make our way to Venice on one of the few gloomy days that happened during our trip. It was also a random suggestion in the middle of the day but when someone says they want to go, we gotta go. Lukasz had only visited Venice once about a year before we met. It was one of the few places in California he happened to make a pit stop and one of the few places he found actually interesting during his travels out West. Venice is like a mini New York in that people just aren’t afraid to be themselves. It was really nice to get to come here with our daughter (although the weather could have been better). It did make for some interestingly gloomy pictures, despite our high spirits.
On our way back to the car, as the real rain began, we stopped at this little Peruvian restaurant that was as literally a hole on the wall. I can be a little picky about Peruvian food. My parents always seem to know the spots when we’re in California and I get my fair share of it when we go visit. I’m always wary of trying new Peruvian restaurants in New York because they always make the food so kitschy. The true mark of a good semi-authentic place is always the portion of their ceviche. It has to be a nice hearty bowl of fish. Otherwise, what’s the point? This place in Venice, whose name escapes me, really hit the spot. It was all weirdly served in “to-go” containers despite us eating in but everything was great from the ceviche to the Lomo Saltado.
It was one of those days that left you tired at the end, with all the driving, Petra fell asleep in the car after eating so many French fries. My favorite thing ever is showing her these new places and getting even more excited to come back when she’s older as well. It’s so amazing to show everything to a new little human being. I feel like, with Petra and Lukasz, I have travel partners for life.